:14:00
I don't know how I'll feel about it when
I finally do it, and it's not irrevocable,
:14:05
but I feel it's something I have to try.
:14:11
Now, as I say, it's not
an irrevocable situation.
:14:15
It's a separation.
:14:17
It may be for the best. It may not.
:14:22
But I wanted to lay it on
the table so that everything is open
:14:26
and as direct as possible.
:14:39
Will you please not breathe so hard?
:14:47
- I'll move out.
- What does that mean?
:14:50
- I don't want to live in this house.
- Eve, think about it.
:14:54
- I'll move out!
- Look, it's not irrevocable.
:14:57
It's a trial separation.
:15:00
I can't be alone.
:15:04
- Eve...
- I don't wanna discuss the details now.
:15:11
It's a very bad time for me.
:15:20
My impotence set in a year ago.
:15:26
My paralysis.
:15:30
I suddenly found
I couldn't write any more.
:15:32
Rather, I shouldn't say suddenly.
Actually, it started happening last winter.
:15:42
Increasing thoughts about death
just seemed to come over me.
:15:46
Um, these, uh...
:15:52
A preoccupation with my own mortality.
:15:57
These... feelings of futility
in relation to my work.