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- What was a mystery?
- How people learn.
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How I could learn.
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Which is what
I've been speaking of in class.
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And, of course,
you can't hear it, Carol.
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Of course you can't.
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If you are told...
Listen to this...
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If the young child is told
that he cannot understand...
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then he takes it
as a description of himself.
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What am I?
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I am that
which cannot understand.
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And I saw you back there...
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when we were speaking
of the concept...
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I can't understand any of them.
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Then that's my fault.
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That is not your fault.
And that is not verbiage.
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That is what I firmly hold
to be the truth.
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And I'm sorry.
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And I owe you an apology.
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Why?
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I suppose I've had
some things on my mind.
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We're buying a house...
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People said
that you were stupid?
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Yes.
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Yes.
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When?
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I'll tell you when.
Through my life.
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In my childhood.
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Perhaps they stopped,
but I heard them continue.
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And what did they say?
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They said I was incompetent.
You see?
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And when I am tested,
the feelings of my youth...
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about the very subject
of learning come up...
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and I feel
unworthy and unprepared...
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- Yes.
- And I feel that I must fail.
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But then you do fail.
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You have to, don't you?
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A pilot... flying a plane.
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The pilot is flying the plane.
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He thinks, "Oh, my God,
my mind's been drifting.
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"Oh, my God, what kind of
a cursed imbecile am I...
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"that I, with so precious
a cargo of life in my charge...
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"would allow my attention
to wander?
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"Why was I born?
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"How deluded are those
who put their trust in me?"
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Et cetera and so on.
And he crashes the plane.
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- He could just...
- That's right.
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"My attention
wandered for a moment."
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"I had a thought
I did not like, but now..."
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That's what I'm telling you.