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In my childhood.
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Perhaps they stopped,
but I heard them continue.
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And what did they say?
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They said I was incompetent.
You see?
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And when I am tested,
the feelings of my youth...
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about the very subject
of learning come up...
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and I feel
unworthy and unprepared...
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- Yes.
- And I feel that I must fail.
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But then you do fail.
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You have to, don't you?
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A pilot... flying a plane.
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The pilot is flying the plane.
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He thinks, "Oh, my God,
my mind's been drifting.
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"Oh, my God, what kind of
a cursed imbecile am I...
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"that I, with so precious
a cargo of life in my charge...
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"would allow my attention
to wander?
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"Why was I born?
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"How deluded are those
who put their trust in me?"
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Et cetera and so on.
And he crashes the plane.
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- He could just...
- That's right.
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"My attention
wandered for a moment."
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"I had a thought
I did not like, but now..."
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That's what I'm telling you.
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"It's time
to put my attention..."
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You see, it is not...
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It is not magic.
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I know in situations like these,
you will think...
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"I must, but I can't."
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And you will think,
"Why was I born...
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"to be the laughingstock
of a world...
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"in which everyone
is better than I...
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"where I am
entitled to nothing...
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"where I cannot learn?"
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All right.
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I'm never going
to get out of here today.
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Is that what I have?
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I don't know
if I'd put it that way.
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Listen...
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I'm talking to you...
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as I would talk to my son...
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because that's what I'd like
him to have that I never had.
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I'm talking to you the way
I wish someone talked to me.
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I don't know how to do it...
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other than to be personal
with you, but...
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Why would you want
to be personal with me?
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You see,
that's what I'm saying.
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We can only interpret
the behavior of others...
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through the screen...
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Oh, Lord.