:51:06
And it's a dreadful experience.
:51:10
It's been hard, Lars.
:51:12
It's been hard to watch everything that
you guys do and you touch turn to gold,
:51:18
and everything I do fuckin' backfire.
:51:23
And I'm sure
there's a lot of people that...
:51:26
they would consider my backfire
a complete success, you know?
:51:31
And am I happy being number two? No!
:51:37
You know? You're just now
encountering something
:51:40
l've been going through 13, 14 years.
:51:44
l've never had a chance
to be able to tell you without...
:51:48
talking to Lars, the guy in Metallica.
:51:51
l've never talked to
my little Danish friend again. You know?
:51:56
l remember the day you and I talked
about digging a hole in fuckin' dirt
:51:59
and smoking hash through the ground.
:52:04
That, to me, is the stuff that's like...
:52:10
You know? And we've never had
very many moments like that.
:52:17
Do I feel some guiIt?
Uh, yes, I do.
:52:21
But at the same time,
it's difficuIt for me to comprehend
:52:25
that the only thing that you feel
:52:30
when you look back
on the last 20 years...
:52:34
is rooted in the Metallica thing.
:52:42
OK.
:52:44
Have you ever thought
what l've been through?
:52:49
l think l've had an awareness
of the pain I caused you.
:52:53
- Um...
- That's not what I said.
:52:57
OK. Um...
:52:58
- Do you have any idea...
- Of what I put you through?